For those who have been following me for a long time, and for those who know me in real life, you all know who Matt is. and if you dont, long story short he is a horrible, evil, wretched person. and he also happens to be my ex boyfriend. who i always say im going to get over. that ill stop loving him, and that ill stop caring. so to kick start that plan into official action, i started dating. and i feel like i dated everyone and their mom. slept around, had good times, and had some bad times too. but it didnt matter because i sabotaged myself by coming home and calling him to tell him about my dates. was i doing that because i had no one else to talk to? was i doing it because i wanted him to be jealous? for him to see that im actually moving on? i guess the point of this is tell you all that he moved back into town. and i dont know what to do. was it easier to have a broken heart with him 300 miles away? probably. but hes here now. and i feel like my heart is in a million pieces.


i loved him with my whole heart and nothing less.


but what the hell do i do now.